If I knew know what I do, would I have kids? Hum... not a good question to ask me tonight. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids with all my heart... with every part of me... I am not sure there is any even left. I want so much for them.
My biggest want is for them to be kind to each other. IS THAT ASKING TOO MUCH? Oh yah, they have their moments. But can those moments not be minutes, hours, days... a life time? Will that ever happen?
What an evening. I realize that is part of the drama from tonight. A ridiculously long evening for anyone to bare.
Pick up from School, Guitar lessons for Tyler and Jordan, Sammy is at a after school Volleyball game, go to his game, then take him to his hockey game... Sanj picks up the boys from guitar, coaches the hockey game, and is off to a board meeting right after the game. I stick around for the game to bring all the boys home and then do home work and bed.
I am frazzled. I am tired. So I know they are tired. But is this a right to be mean?
What am I doing wrong? I don't feel I am cut out for parenting... to be responsible for raising kind, loving, responsible men.
I don't want to mess this up. I just don't have the answers. Is there a parent hotline? Maybe that is children's aid services!
I am so grateful for my family. I love them so much. I am just tired of the constant bickering and issues that never go away.
I am failing parenting 101... maybe I need The Nanny!
You are the most amazing Mom I know! I marvel every day at your ability to parent, and all of your boys are wonderful! I have enjoyed getting to know them a little bit better over the last little while.
ReplyDeleteHang in there...maybe a little vacation is needed? Boy, I sure know I could use one...without kids:)!!
Oh..this struck a HUGE CHORD with me...as I feel this on a weekly..sometimes daily basis..depending on how much arguing/bickering, back talking is going on...hey! I am all for a vacation to...without kids!!! I think it would be delightful to have a group of women friends....off to a warm tropical all inclusive resort.....no kids..no husbands..just girl talk, sunshine, good food and drinks! Any takers??
ReplyDeleteI am glad I am not alone in this battle. After two weeks vacation I am thinking that maybe I am not cut out to parent. Reema, I admire you as a friend and mother -just here to say that you are not alone. Our constant battle is to prevent their constant battles. I assure you, one day we will win when they have their own children to mediate between!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are a fantastic mom, and to expect kids not to fight and bicker would be changing the course of history. I don't think that there are any siblings that do not bicker. Your kids are wonderful, and they likely behave better away from you than with you - again a human nature thing. You are a fantastic mom. I wish that you were my mom!!!
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