It's Sunday afternoon. The time seems to be going too fast... before I know it, the boys will be in bed and it will be time to begin another school week. Boo. I really want more time of just relaxing and hanging out.
This is the first new year that I have not verbalized resolutions. Maybe because for the most part, I seem to never be able to keep them. And it seems to be a repeat of the same one ever year! Yes, you know the one... lose weight and be healthier.
It doesn't mean I am not going to try... as I, course, never seem to stop wishing I was the 20 year old version of me. But... I am not going to obsess about resolutions.
Growing up, when my dad decided that Christmas was heathen... we then celebrated New Years. It was a big deal to make those resolutions. 1) Read my bible. That was one I had one my list every year. 2) Attempt for straight A's 3) Just be a better person. (This was tied into gaining the love or something of my dad).
It shouldn't really take a new year to strive to be a better person. Thankfully, if we are blessed with another day, that should be motivation enough, don't you think?
I guess I am the kind of person that takes life for granted. Yet I am not promised more than this day... this moment.
Maybe this is on my mind because I can't stop thinking of my friend, Trevor. They have not found him. I guess that I must accept that he is gone. Yet, I do still hold a tiny bit of hope that he will still be found. I am sure that Trevor did not think that that was his last day on earth. Things can change in a second, can't they?
Sanj and I went out to supper the other night with friends of ours. My friend was at death's door. Doctors said she wouldn't make it. I remember feeling so sad, I remember wondering if she knew how much I loved her? Did she know how she touched my life?
(I love you, Doreen...)
As I sat across from her, at dinner, I kept reminding myself that two Christmas' ago, I was ready to say goodbye. She is alive and with us. What a blessing!
I guess I learned over the years that a New Year is not promised. I need to make the effort to better my self every day.
A new day... Tomorrow, if I wake up, I really should be grateful for the gift of another day. Usually, though, I will be grumpy, as I squint with one eye to check if my chance it is 3 am... then I give myself 5 more minutes... those famous lines that always seem to make me late! I am not usually grateful for the day till around 10 am... when I would like my day to begin!
So my resolution for Tomorrow is to wake up with a grateful heart.
(Then of course there is the resolution to be on-time... then go to the gym, then... ).
