Dreams and Passions!

Last night I went to see Julie and Julia. I loved it! Both actresses were fabulous!

I watched my own emotions and thoughts being played out on the screen.

I loved that search for what both women were meant to do. This is where I am now in my life. I don't want to be doing something mediocre. I feel this need and desire to do the thing that I was here to do. I just don't quite know what it is!

Motherhood, for sure is the core of my being. And while there are days I feel that I have done a horrid job and other moments that I feel that it is all good, there is now a part of me that is ready to find that rest of me.

I love that the movie incorporated blogging. It brought out just how I feel about writing and expressing thoughts. Most people don't get it. What is the need to share with cyberspace?

I guess I don't think of it as cyberspace. I think of it as my journal of sorts. And yet there is a need to share... not knowing who will read it and get it.

The next step in life ... how do I find fulfillment while doing the things I need to do? Working in Sanj's office, of course is just a necessity not my dream job. But it is a step... a safe first step to leaving home... my office for so many years.

What would be dream job be? It would be writing. I am not sure of what I would be writing about... but definitely writing. I also realized that as much as I love photography, I wouldn't want to make a career of it. I think that would kill my love for it.

So I continue to write. As I watched the movie last night, my hands felt a bit numb at one point because I just needed to start writing at that moment so badly.

I loved the men in this movie. They loved their women so much and just pushed them to find their passion. This is the kind of man I live with. Sanj is always encouraging me to do my next project. You know ... the one that wakes me up at night and keeps me up! He believes in me and pushes me to do it.

I loved the cooking aspect of the movie too. As much as I hate to cook the day to day meals... I think I would actually love it if I could cook like that. I mean, how wouldn't be able to make delicious dishes with BUTTER?

So I left this movie feeling so charged. I know that this year is one that is full of changes and challenges. But I am ready. I am excited at the possibilities that are waiting for me!

I am looking forward to finding the rest of me... and I am excited about the ride as I go on this journey!