The End of a Day...

Today is an Open House at The Ear Company. May is better Hearing and Speech Month. So my husband is going to have a very busy and tiring day.

It is rainy and very wet out... and Max and Zach have trips to the zoo to participate in the Water Festival... I was really hoping the sun would shine for them this day.

Sammy is approaching his graduation from 8th grade. I have a lot of mixed emotions. I think he is ready and excited to head to high school. I am happy for him and yet feel all the mixed emotions of him leaving Rhema. I love knowing that my children are loved and cared for. I never worried for the most part as I knew they were in the care of nurturing adults.

I am sure that will all be in place next year too... but it is still all new and unknown.

Jordan's class had THE TALK. Last night as we talked about stuff again, I really felt a feeling of franticness. There is so much out there. It is all part of growing up. Hormones, girls, parties, drugs... I am not quite ready yet... to have to deal with the reality of my boys growing up and knowing STuFF!

Maxwell is suppose to make one of the famous buildings in the world. He picked the Taj Mahal! Hello??? Could he not have just picked a square building? This is due next week. We are just starting. He is not really a procrastinator... so he is uptight.
I guess (aside from me being the world's best procrastinator) I was really hoping to change his mind to something like the
Greek Parthenon... which is rectangular and add some poles ... doll it up a bit... project done! He did actually say OK... but then I felt bad. How can I discourage my child from his choice because it is too hard or too time consuming? So Taj Mahal... here we come.

Zachary also has a project. The Grade 1 famous Animal Project. He is going to do it on Golden Labs. He is trying really hard in school... he wants to do his as a movie. I am not sure that will happen but never know!


Tyler... he is becoming a song writer. Too beautiful! He is also finding his own relationship with God. So great to watch... choices that are made... with no pressure. He is wanting to be baptized. (This is another blog....)
I enjoy the decision process that each boys makes... so different and so personal.

I guess that leaves Josh. Busy. Busy. Busy. That leaves me tired, tired, tired.

How I love my family. It is the end of the day... the rain has finally come and it is pouring. I love it. It is the best way to go to sleep... It is the perfect way to end a busy day.

Pinched!

I believe Zachary told Josh that God was always behind him.

So Josh keeps asking, "Is God behind me?" And then he swings his head around to see if he can find God behind him!

Today he asked again if God was behind him? And then he says, "God just PINCHED me!"

I am pretty sure God was smiling with me.

I wish I could get a pinch sometimes!

A Boy and His Dog...

Friends Make the World Go Around...

Today I talked to an old girlfriend of mine. We have been through the ups and downs of growing up. I can call her and pick up were we were despite the weeks that go by. I am so glad for the constants that have been in my life. I am so glad that there are some friends that just don't need the explanation.

Today I talked to another friend... we have been friends only a short while... yet she has been with me forever. Does that makes sense? I feel such a connection that allows me a closeness that normal would take many moons. I receive love and affection. I am blessed with such caring and consideration. I feel like in many ways I have met my twin... and yet have such a long way to go to even to in that legend. I feel nurtured and fed.

Today I talked to another friend... we can chat and catch up in minutes and yet know that we are really are there for each other.

Friends... I am blessed by all those God has placed in my life. I am amazed at how He know what I need and when.

I hope that I give to others a bit of what I receive daily.

I pray that my boys will be blessed with friendships that make them better people.

I hope that as the circle of life continues that we remember what is important. It is all about the connections we make... and that make us.

A Moment...

It is time to wind everyone down. I am tired. Really tired. It has been a very busy weekend. We are all tired. Bed... time for bed.

Sanj is doing his course so I am single parenting it tonight as I get everyone to do what needs to be done... bath, chores, dogs, etc.

I already had the younger two in their bed... when I hear singing. It is Zach singing his off tune sing song way (he chooses to sing this way with a vibrato kind of thing happening...) "Holy"... and the guitar is being played with Tyler singing with him.

I almost hesitate to break up the duet. A Beautiful Moment. How I love them. I can see God beaming with pleasure as He looks down. A Moment.

Constant Pursuit...

My brother wrote in his blog " Today, while my small group met, I had an epiphany: While Adam and Eve were hiding, but God was in pursuit of them. Remember, if when you screw up royaly, don't hide from God, because he is in search of you.

I have to constantly remind myself that I am not going to impress God with my actions or even more so that God is not going to pounce on me and "write me up" even other minute that I stumble.

I think when I was little, it was brainwashed into me that GOD was in a constant judgement mode. I felt like I was never doing enough to make it. I felt like God was constantly writing in that book of good or evil. I felt like heaven was always a little out of reach.

Now, I believe that God is there, encouraging me, knowing my heart, knowing my heart's desires, feeling my love.

Yet when I have a evil thought about someone or something, I still can't help but panic and feel ashamed knowing that God heard it too.

So I love that God is in constant pursuit of me. I love that He is never giving up. I love that HE believes that I am worth it!

Will The Real You Please Stand Up?

One of my biggest frustrations is people that try too hard.

I suppose this is stemmed from insecurities. Nevertheless, I find this behavior annoying. An example of this are Christians who try too hard.

I am picking on Christians simply because this was an experience that is fresh on my mind. No one expects families to be perfect. No one expects a mom or dad to be perfect. That includes God. He actually understands and accepts the imperfection in us.

I love that. I don't have to try hard to impress Him. He gets me. He understands that no one is harder on me than ME!

Why pretend you are a engaged parent when we understand you are a workaholic? Why pretend to have perfect children when we all are going through parenting together and love the childishness that make children who they are?

Why say "I was praying for you today?" When you barely have said hello? Weird? Petty? Probably.

I just hate superficialness. Please just be real with me. I like you. Especially the real you. Please don't pretend. I don't know what to do with that. I spent too many years forced to pretend we were a happy family... growing up. I can't do that.

I am who I am.

I am full of flaws. Just ask my oldest! But I am trying. I am really trying. I feel that if I live each day to the best I can... and some days even just to the tiniest of that... God gets it.

So I am not looking for perfection. I am just looking for real. Please?